Crises

Man, sometimes the world just washes over me. This last month has been one of those times where all the mistakes I've made catch back up a while, before ebbing again to let me push forward. But I hardly expect things to change quickly. This past while I got sucked into the courts again for a month, solely due to errors on the part of others. And our courts do not move fast. Two months for them to look at a piece of paper I had in order to say that they had screwed up. And bleeding me for another hundred in the process? Hardly out of the question.

Which leads me to my most startling discovery of the last year--that our "justice" system is not trying to rehabilitate, but bleed our inmates. Bleed them of their money and time, and, in most cases, make it impossible to recover once they are free. I feel as though this is especially the case with the drug courts in our country (speaking from what I've gleaned from others, and in this case not my own personal experience). So very many people get involved for little more than personal use, and are then involved for years. Job applications ask for criminal history (which I cannot blame them for) and any sign of a troubled past exempts you from employment. This is active discrimination. I, personally, now have a misdemeanor marked on my record, and already I have lost too many opportunities. A stupid mistake on my part, and now I have to pay the courts with money I need to get from a job, I can't get because I'm involved in the courts. Fuck.

But that's enough of a rant for now. I'm sure I will expand upon this later, once my seething rage subsides further.